A real birth day !
For people who took pains in wishing me through LJ, I dedicate this post to update my present status. I have been truthful to my journal. But for the past couple of months, I have been going through unexpected incidents/trauma, which I intentionally failed to record. 

This bday has not been like earlier years,and worst being, its one of my lowest points in life, where I am depressed personally, professionally and almost dont have anything to look forward to. I was hoping for the whole day to just pass. The day did pass, but I want to record this period in my life, bcos I am sure, one day ahead when I read this entry,  I would pat myself for having sailed through this period. 

Gist of the bday day !
- Back in Blore, had to join back work, bcos they changed the leave policy.
- No bday cakes, all of the buddies out of town, they didnt expect me to be in town. 
- No phone, as I dont have a local number yet.
- reach office and client access card does not work, so no cubicle, no landline, and no PC.. which means no Gmail access either
- severe headache, and manage to have dinner. 
- people whom you trust for a lifetime, just turn their backs away and you get to learn a bitter lesson not to forgive them, even if it means, you are all alone rest of your life.  When they dont care about you, flush them out of your life, it is painful, but then it shall also pass.

Good things
- Have wonderful parents and family, whom you can always turn to. 
- Have wonderful friends, the sweet call of 20 month old Mihi, calling me Ninni... is priceless.
-even if frends reach the town at 11 pm, they make it a point to come home to personally wish you. 
- life is still beautiful, there are lot of things, one has to learn to accept and cherish !
 

I am born again today, I am discovering my identity, I never knew what I wanted to be, I wanted to be what others wanted me to be. Today, I find myself all alone, and  I have plenty of things to choose from what life has to offer.  I just got richer,bcos I discovered what I didnt know I could have.