My state of mind is exactly like what my desk calendar shows " You can give up when something goes wrong, or you can let misfortune transform you into something better"
I am confused whether to give up or let misfortune strike. From my past experiences, I have seen misfortunes moulding me into a better person for tomorrow. However the road to recovery is not very pleasant either. I have been lucky so far not to lose sanity over this.
Now I feel, giving up at the right moment before letting damage in, is better than going through it. I might be harsh to myself, but I hope the aftermath of this is not that bad.
I hate when my intuitions are right especially when it is bad for me. I wish I was bad at putting things together when everything seems like a jigsaw puzzle.
I also hate looking at my desk calendar over and over again. It seems to be reflecting things running in my mind. I wish I could wrap it up and throw it inside, but for the promise I made to someone who always wished the best for me.