The last time, I used the same subject for an LJ update, I really hoped it would be the last time I used it. Of course, I have failed again :) Thanks to facebook, for keeping me occupied when I didnt have anything much to do. However I do read friends updates here, but sadly, only two of my friends ( annietopia
) have been regular with their updates. This week has been better, there are couple of posts from other friends also. I have been procrastinating the update for a while now, but for Annie's nudge today. Thanks Annie.
After my Korea Travel in May, where I didnt accomplish anything major to update here, I have been occupied with work. Usually I crib a lot about hectic work, but my adorable Korean team-mate H has an amazing charm, which gets me glued to work. One of the reasons my departure from Korea was heart-breaking was to leave him behind. I could dedicate a separate post for H. Mihika
turned 4 this year. I usually look forward to her birthday. But the fear of losing the child within her, I wish birthdays come slower hereafter. She is no more a child. She is an individual with her own perspective about everything. Everything is now a pre-calculated thought, action, plan by her. There are times, I search for the innocence within. She has learnt to hide emotions especially when she does not want to display her vulnerability, she no longer jumps/shows excitement when I make sudden appearances. I have to struggle a lot to click a picture, its always an artificial smile these days. I wish kids never grow up :)
Life has become too comfortable these days that I have a fear of losing something. A fear that I am missing something I am unaware of. May be I need a change, of place, of job, of anything I can work on. I am happy and content with work and life in general, but 6 months from now, if I pause and look back, I am sure, I wouldnt like the way my life is taking me ahead now. I hope I can figure out this bit and amend it the right way.
June/July has been eventful otherwise. 2 of my good friends got married. One got married in Shimoga, so we made a quick plan and visit to places around Shimoga. Jog falls was a must-see for a long time. We did some random tours around, and thanks to stick's tour planning, we managed to spend atleast 30 minutes at the wedding, the rest of the time, we were traveling. The other friend D got married in Bangalore, so I am glad, I made it to the wedding and also managed to take some good pictures of the bride and groom in action.
It might be just a pause phase of my life now, but everything around me is moving fast. There are people who have moved on, shifted jobs, countries, people getting married, expecting babies, babies turning one, two etc, everything seems so fast moving around, I hope I get upto the speed than drift away in an non-existent comfort zone. But yes, its nice to wake up from hibernation.